I’m a perfectionist. It’s an aspect of my personality that has both rewarded and cursed me. Last week, I had a performance review at work and I was described as someone who “goes above and beyond to deliver the best and most satisfactory results.”
But my perfectionism is also a source of much grief and indecision. It’s crippling, for one thing. It feeds into my depression and anxiety, makes me obsess if I feel I am perceived negatively.
Like this blog post, for instance. I dithered on whether or not it is worth uploading, as it has no valuable insight, so it can be construed as mindless fodder.
This is just a list of all the pending blog posts that I still want to write, even though some of the posts will be reviews of books I have read months ago. With some of the books, I have a contrary opinion compared to the general consensus – and I think I will enjoy the exercise of rationally arguing why I didn’t enjoy these much-lauded books as much as I had expected.
“Checklist” is more for me, so I can keep track of all the posts I still want to write and cross out the uploaded ones while providing links.
Hmm, perhaps “Checklist” itself is a manifestation of my perfectionist spirit? It always gives me much joy to strike through completed tasks.
Without further ado, the list:
- Laskar Pelangi (The Rainbow Troops in official English translation) by Andrea Hirata
- The Vegetarian by Han Kang
The Painted Veil by W. Somerset Maugham(Review link here)
- Bird by Bird: Some Instructions on Writing and Life by Anne Lamott
- The Doll by Daphne du Maurier
USA Travel posts:
- San Francisco and the South Bay, California
- Seattle and Spokane, Washington
- New York City Area
Endnote: There are books I have read but will not review. A Pocket Full of Rye by Agatha Christie is a good example. It was an OK novel. Not bad, not great. I have nothing to say about it and I have no strong feelings for it either way. It did serve a good purpose: entertaining me on my twenty-hour flight to California.
And now, to work on actually writing the posts! (Insert muscle emoji here)